Pardon my Silence

Pardon My Silence…
I have been silent, because there hasn’t been much to say. A lot has happened here, but with the busy-ness of school and tasks, I haven’t stopped to think, or pray, or be thankful – and I thought that if I spoke I feared all that I would say would be about the busyness – the tasks, the day to day events, the unevaluated life happenings that at face value could be expressed in one manner, but actually through deeper reflection often mean something different. The deeper side of my wants to argue that I didn’t want to share shallow things or the simple reflections; the more honest side knows that I simply didn’t take the time to slow down at all – and simple isn’t bad.

For my silence I am sorry. This is an apology I make to you and to myself. I keep thinking that I will be more prolific when my classes are finished and exams have passed, but I realized today that this is just another excuse not to stop, take a deep breath, and think about the real reason I am here – to learn not just facts, figures and my least favourite – philosophy – but to learn about people, about myself and the perpetual lesson on how to love. I know this takes time, and because I am in the rut of thinking that time is too precious to waste, I forget to invest it in the reflections that although not instantly gratifying, would give me a dividend far surpassing good grades, additional head knowledge and good conversational points.
Now the time has come, ironically in the midst of studying for my final exams, that I fear I can’t procrastinate reflecting or sharing anymore. I will start with a simple story, and perhaps more will come as the week(s) progress. Forgive me my rustiness in sharing and writing, I am sure it will get better with time.